This love is overwhelming

Sunday was a plain boring day. In the evening i called him but i was just not feeling good. My whole life,most of my ex-boyfriends have treated me like trash;I was just another girl for them and now,Chayan calls me a 'Goddess!' and tells me he could even worship me!! I know i should be so happy to have him in my life but last night i was just so speechless! I mean...i'm not really great. Sometimes i'm just so boring and very moody that i get frustrated with myself. Chayan has put up with all my drama and he still loves me..maybe even more! I can't even express how much he loves me...i can't describe who or what he is;He's too special to be considered 'normal'..he's extraordinary. All these words are from my heart.....and hopefully one day he'll know that i love him more than i love myself. I'm not a self-obssessed person anymore. I belong to him now and whatever i do,i have to think of him too.

Love? that was just not for me!

hmmm...i just don't know how to start this thing. Well,im sitting at home..got tired of watching tv with grandma. Chayan,my boyfriend,he is not here and i miss him so much! He is in Hong Kong for some work...but will be back soon. And also,mom and my sister,genesis are back in Tura..im all by myself in Shillong. I really don't want to go out because grandma's alone here and i know she's also bored.

I want to see chayan again. He keeps me so happy and magically kicks out all my problems...and when we kiss,there is nothing else i feel other than love. I can't believe im even writing this because all my hopes and dreams of ever loving somebody again was shattered. My last relationship was a total disaster..i became so cold and hated just about everyone. I hated my friends when they were happy...i was a bitch! But in a few months after that...Chayan made me realise that im a special person. I would cry for hours..every single day and night. Not only did my ex-boyfriend make me sad but so many things regarding the dark side of my past came creeping in. It was a tough battle but eventually,i felt Chayan's love for me even though he would'nt say it and somehow he was like an angel protecting me. I knew from that day onwards that i had someone who cared a lot about me and deep inside i made up my mind to care for him too. I LOVE MY ANGEL